YOU CAN'T COUNT ON ME Paperback

There is a moment right before someone needs her most when Nicole Killian starts looking for the door. You Can't Count On Me isn't a redemption arc with a bow on top. It's a confession from a woman who spent much of her life perfecting the art of disappearing, and is only now learning to sit still long enough to look at the wreckage. Equal parts hilarious and gutting, this memoir trades tidy life lessons for something more honest: humor as survival, chaos as a coping mechanism, and accountability without pretending trauma comes with an instruction manual. Content warning: This memoir contains discussions of childhood trauma, family dysfunction, addiction and substance misuse, domestic conflict, mental illness, abandonment, grief, death, unhealthy relationships, sexual situations, and violence. Please read with care. If you've ever been the one who left, the one who got left, or the one still standing by the door — this book is for you.